Mon, 9 Jan 2006

i am having a really hard time right now. i am on the brink of tears. i want to crawl-up into a ball and cry. i tried to call. You didn't answer Your cell. You haven't called me back. i feel really really bad right now. TJ is due home soon. i don't want to be a mom. i want to be tucked into bed, in Your arms, and hide. i checked my sugars. i am fine. Not as high as i have been lately, but still high. That doesn't make me feel better. Even the clonazepam isn't helping. Why haven't You called back????? Now You won't call. Now it is after 3:30, and You won't call. Damn it