Fri, 10 Feb 2006

i can't say i am not disappointed. Still no sex, not since the 2nd. i know You were tired and i didn't feel that good, but yeah, i did feel let down. No play on Tuesday, no play last night. Yes we played on Monday, but only because i made myself come down to Your place to see You. If i hadn't, then there would have been nothing for the week. Yes i feel like i am doing all the work again. i email every day, i ask for smokes, i ask for the bathroom, i asked to come to bed last night. Please understand that this is just how i feel. i do get how tired You were, just like You were tired on Tuesday. i do get that if we play, it is up to You. Just please understand that the build-up (talk about playing while TJ was out, and then talk about playing once TJ went to bed), and the let-down (talk about what You had wanted to do to me) sucks.