Sat, 15 Apr 2006

Mood: blue
Topic: How i feel

Dear Master,

i don't know if You read this anymore or not, but i need to say this out loud.

i want You to want me back. i want to submit to You. i want to give myself back to You. Just like i said the other night, i would do anything to make this possible. i would even submit to Sherry and You at the same time. i would even submit to Sherry. i would even appoligize to Sherry.

i know i screwed up in the relationship, and i know You are starting to realize that also. i am sorry for how i was. i am sorry for the high expectations i put on both of us. You say we should move forward, and i want that too. i just want to do it with You.

i know You want to play with others. That is not a new thing. i never ment to stop You. You would say to me that You wanted it to be both of us that played with new submissives. You would say You didn't want that. i would say for You to go out and play on Your own with them. i still feel that way. i want You to be who You are, i have always wanted that.

The past year has been so hard on us both. i want to get pasted it. i want to accept Sherry. i want You to accept me. i want to be back at Your feet. i need to be back at Your feet.

i hate feeling this needy. i hate feeling this broken. What i hate the worst of all is not being Yours. You are the best thing that ever happened to me and i took that for granted. i just want to be back where i belong, and i want You back where You belong. i need You back where You belong.

i know that You want that also. i see it in Your eyes whenever we are together. i hear it in Your voice whenever we are talking. i know the rules have to change. i know i will not like them all. i know alot of it has to do with You spending time elsewhere, but i can live with that. i will do whatever You want me to do.

Please Master, consider taking me back. i beg You Master, please