i started crying yesterday. There was no reason. No thought, just tears. Uncontrollable, vomit inducing, stomach wrenching tears. i couldn't figure it out. Why would it have started? It had been a good day. i had gotten stuff done that i needed to get done. i had talked with friends. i had been laughing and everything had been good. So why the tears?
It was then my Mom called. Seems yesterday was Wednesday. i have been good for Wednesdays for a little while. So what if it was Wednesday? Wednesdays hadn't been bad for a while, so why now? Why yesterday? It wasn't like i was thinking about Him. It wasn't like i was going over how much i was missing Him. Thoughts of Him didn't even cross my mind as i cried and vomitted. Mom says i did too much. It didn't feel that way. It really didn't. i still don't understand.
Tomorrow i start school. After class, i go to Pam's to be with her and Ethan. There is talk about lunch. i don't know if we are going out or if Ethan is cooking. They are busy as it is. They are heading for vacation Saturday. Saturday i am going to the Pagan Pride day here. Danielle is coming with me. i am not sure what is going to be happening Saturday night, but it is all good.
i am so tired. Just so tired all the time. Tired right now even. MIT will be home soon. Then i get to make dinner and get the MIT ready for karate. Actually, i am starting dinner now. It will take a hour or so for dinner to cook. After that, i will let it sit and wait for a while. Maybe the MIT will eat some. Then again, He might now. He can be fickle. Anyways, off to the mundane life i seem to be living.
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