Sun, 16 Apr 2006

Dear Master

i did a little ritual last night, and some visualization. While i wait for them to come to life, i have decided to be the best submissive to You as i can be. So, i am going to go back to the rules that You set out in January. i am going to follow those i can, and accept that things are up to You. i am going to be who i am (Your submissive) and be who You have always needed me to be.

Just as a reminder, these are the rules i will be following:

Rules (January 2006)
1.Smoking.
a. Wendy is to ask for smokes at all times, either verbally or with hand signals. At His discretion, Mike will allow or not. If Mike says “no”, Wendy is to wait 1/2hr before asking again.

2.Clothes.
a. At Mike’s place, Wendy is to be naked at all times, unless Mike specifically tells her differently. b. At Wendy’s, if TJ is out, and no one else is home, Wendy is to be naked, unless Mike specifically tells her differently.
c. At home, if TJ is in bed, and no one else is there, Wendy is to be naked, unless Mike specifically tells her differently.
d. Mike will try and pick items if He is around.

3.Furniture
a. At Mike’s place, Wendy is to sit on the floor unless told otherwise. She may request to sit or lie on bed, but it is at Mike’s discretion.
b. At Wendy’s, when TJ is up and we are all together, Wendy can sit at the table, in the computer chair, or on the floor by the couch.
c. At Wendy’s, when TJ is in bed, or out, Wendy is to sit on the floor unless given permission to do otherwise. She may request to sit on furniture, but it is at Mike’s discretion.

4.Computer Time a. Between 5:30am and 11:30pm, if Mike is present, Wendy is to request permission to use the computer.

5.Bed Time
a. Sunday – Thursday 11:30pm (if Monday is a holiday, Sunday’s curfew is 1:00am), unless Mike specifically tells her differently.
b. Friday and Saturday 1:00am unless Mike specifically tells her differently.

6.Emails
a. Daily emails are to be sent the morning (before noon) of the next day and are to include:

• i. Food intake
• ii. Blood sugars (4/day)
• iii. Activities done throughout the day
• iv. Any tasks Mike has given Wendy to complete
• v. How Wendy is feeling about the day, things in general, and any play that has happened

b. Weekly emails are to be sent before 11:00pm Sunday evening and is to include: i. A “To Do” list for the upcoming week.

7.Exercise
a. One day a week, Wendy is to walk the mall after dropping Erin off at school.

8.Schedule
a. Friday

• i. If Mike goes to Kingston, he will leave after work or at a time of his choosing, and will call Wendy when he gets to Kingston.
• ii. If Mike stays in Hamilton, He will sleep at Wendy’s Friday night. After discussion with Wendy, Mike will decide what activities will take place.

b. Saturday

• i. If Mike is in Kingston, Mike will try and call Wendy.
• ii. If in Hamilton, and after TJ leaves, Mike will decide what activities will take place.

c. Sunday

• i. If Mike goes to Kingston
• 1. Mike will return at a time of his choosing.
• 2. If Mike is early, he will see Wendy for the afternoon (sometimes supper time).
• 3. If Mike is later, he will go to his apartment and call Wendy.
• 4. In the evening, Mike can do as he pleases, but will not have company over to his place.
• ii. If Mike is in Hamilton
• 1. Mike will stay at Wendy’s until the afternoon (sometimes supper time).
• 2. In the evening, Mike can do as he pleases, but will not have company over to his place.

d. Monday

• i. If Wendy has someone to watch TJ, she is to go to Mike’s place for a “play date”. Upon Wendy’s arrival, Mike will decide what activities will take place.
• ii. If Wendy does not have someone to watch TJ, Mike may or may not (depending on how tired he is) come up once TJ is in bed. Mike will decide what activities will take place and if he will be staying the night.

e. Tuesday

• i. Bowling / Munch night 1. D/s will take place while out. 2. Once home, Mike will decide if any activities will take place.

f. Wednesday

• i. Wendy is free to do, as she wants. Mike is free to do, as He wants.
• ii. If real life situations arise, this will change.

g. Thursday

• i. Mike will be at Wendy’s for supper.
• ii. If TJ goes to karate, Mike will decide what activities will take place.
• iii. If TJ stays home, this time will be devoted to “family time”.
• iv. Once TJ is in bed, Mike will decide what activities will take place.
• v. If Mike is going to Kingston for the weekend, he will sleep over.
• vi. If Mike is not going to Kingston, Mike will decide if he will sleep over.

So, those are the rules i am going to follow. i am also not going to say the "F" word. i am also going to see You without a bra. i am also going to ask to bath You. i am also going to dress right for bowling.

i am going to email You today and ask if i can start sending You emails again, and which email to send them too. i am not going to presume that it is ok to just do it. That would be more like topping from the bottom i am comfortable with. Hopefully You will say yes.

i am going to be the best submissive i can be for You, and maybe it will prove to You how much i love You and want to be Yours.

Sat, 15 Apr 2006

Mood: blue
Topic: How i feel

Dear Master,

i don't know if You read this anymore or not, but i need to say this out loud.

i want You to want me back. i want to submit to You. i want to give myself back to You. Just like i said the other night, i would do anything to make this possible. i would even submit to Sherry and You at the same time. i would even submit to Sherry. i would even appoligize to Sherry.

i know i screwed up in the relationship, and i know You are starting to realize that also. i am sorry for how i was. i am sorry for the high expectations i put on both of us. You say we should move forward, and i want that too. i just want to do it with You.

i know You want to play with others. That is not a new thing. i never ment to stop You. You would say to me that You wanted it to be both of us that played with new submissives. You would say You didn't want that. i would say for You to go out and play on Your own with them. i still feel that way. i want You to be who You are, i have always wanted that.

The past year has been so hard on us both. i want to get pasted it. i want to accept Sherry. i want You to accept me. i want to be back at Your feet. i need to be back at Your feet.

i hate feeling this needy. i hate feeling this broken. What i hate the worst of all is not being Yours. You are the best thing that ever happened to me and i took that for granted. i just want to be back where i belong, and i want You back where You belong. i need You back where You belong.

i know that You want that also. i see it in Your eyes whenever we are together. i hear it in Your voice whenever we are talking. i know the rules have to change. i know i will not like them all. i know alot of it has to do with You spending time elsewhere, but i can live with that. i will do whatever You want me to do.

Please Master, consider taking me back. i beg You Master, please

Sun, 9 Apr 2006

it will be 5 years ago this week that i took your collar. The one you offered to me. The one you promised would be forever. You have blocked me out of your life again. Your emails are no longer open to me. Your photos are no longer open to me. I shouldn't be suprised. i am not with you anymore, so i have no right to them. Yes you say i am your lover and that is the place in your life for me, but it isn't really being a part of your life. It is being there for you to fuck. It is being there for you to top when you want. It is being there for you to talk to when you want. It is being there for you to use my login for the spec. It is being there to be sad and alone on a Saturday night and a Sunday during a race. That is all it is. It means nothing. God i can't do this anymore. i can't keep crying over you. i can't keep hurting because of you. i saw that you are finally reading the Ethical Slut. You know, that book i gave you a year ago for you to read. A book i thought would be good for you to read to help us. A year ago. And now, now that we are not together, you are finally getting down to reading it. More proof that i'm not worth anything. Not even worth the time to read a fucking book for. How many more ways will you continue to prove just how worthless i really am, and how worthless our relationship was to you?

Fri, 10 Mar 2006

i don't know how to explain to you how the special cane being used on you, after only 2 weeks of our breaking up, really hurt me. All i can do is link it to something else. Something that you might be able to relate to. i mean, how would you feel if i asked for the lock back. How would you feel if i decided to wear it "just because". How would you feel if i wanted to wear it whenever i played. How would you feel, if something that special, was used for a purpose other than what it was ment for. What we had said it was ment for. That is how i feel about the special cane. You had said it was for me. Only for me. You showed that to me, but never letting anyone else use it. You showed that to me but never using it on someone else. Then you had someone else use it. You allowed it to be used on someone else. It felt like the specialness of it didn't matter to you. That was how i felt betrayed. Not that you played, but that you used something that was just us. Something that was a representation of us. That was what hurt so much. This is why i want to split up our stuff really soon. So this never happens again. i know some of what i want. Stuff that means something special to me. i don't want everything. This isn't about what i don't want used on someone else, or stuff i don't want on you, but about stuff that i find special. Stuff that meant "us" to me.

Fri, 10 Feb 2006

i can't say i am not disappointed. Still no sex, not since the 2nd. i know You were tired and i didn't feel that good, but yeah, i did feel let down. No play on Tuesday, no play last night. Yes we played on Monday, but only because i made myself come down to Your place to see You. If i hadn't, then there would have been nothing for the week. Yes i feel like i am doing all the work again. i email every day, i ask for smokes, i ask for the bathroom, i asked to come to bed last night. Please understand that this is just how i feel. i do get how tired You were, just like You were tired on Tuesday. i do get that if we play, it is up to You. Just please understand that the build-up (talk about playing while TJ was out, and then talk about playing once TJ went to bed), and the let-down (talk about what You had wanted to do to me) sucks.

Mon, 6 Feb 2006

Thank You for tonight. Thank You for listening to my fears. Thank You for saying sorry for what You said on Friday. Thank You for letting me be playful. Thank You for pushing me. Thank You for stopping when You could see i really was distressed. i don't understand why the tying up of my hands and the thought of tickling or licking bothers me. It just does. It is this sudden onset of utter terror, panic and fear. It is an automatic fight and get away thing rushing threw my head. i just thought this was stuff You needed to know. i am also wondering what, if not anger, it was You felt last night. You pulled away a bit after i asked You to get off me, and untied my hands. i guess i am still scared that my reactions will push You away. With You not telling me what You were feeling, i felt like i did something wrong by my reacting. That was why i said sorry. Tonight wasn't a test. i really was distressed and tried hard not to react like i normally do. Thank You for the pain play. i still say i have a small ass.

Sat, 4 Feb 2006

i just don't get why we can't try it my way this time

i just don't get why it has to be your way

i just don't get how you can say i am important and worth fighting for, but you can't give me a compromise

i just don't get what the difference will be in two months, when i am already unhappy, to trying it your way

i just don't get why you can't see the hope i see by trying it my way for once

i just don't get how you could tell me that Sherry wouldn't get between you and me, but obviously she is

i just don't get how i can be worth so little to you that you don't even want to work on what it is we have

i just don't get why you think you can get it your way, without me burying who i am

i just don't get how you saying "no i don't think we should work on out issues" is you saying we should work on our issues

i just don't get how this could be my last entry to you

i just don't get how little i mean to you i just don't get why you can't do this for me after all i have done for you

i just don't get how i can say "2 months" and you hear "forever"

i just don't get why my feelings and fears aren't important enough to deal with

i just don't get how my supporting you, and you hurting me gets me punished again

i just don't get why you don't want this relationship to work

Tue, 24 Jan 2006

i am unlocking a couple of posts i have done in the last few days. One, before i knew some of what was happening, one after. By the way, i know some more lies.

Sun, 22 Jan 2006

i am suddenly very cold inside. i am past the point of caring, i think. i keep reading entries and email we have made over the last few years, and keep coming up with the same issues as never being resolved for more than a few weeks, and then things going down hill again. Issues we still have - communication (me doing all the talking about how i feel and getting nothing back from You. You keeping secrets) - me feeling insecure - play not changing - You wanting to explore Your submissive side, without consideration on to how it makes me feel, since it isn't a problem in Your head. - feeling like You don't respect me - not playing often (or at all) in private - secrets i am just so very cold inside right now. i am at the point of not caring what happens. i don't care if You still want to be with me. i don't care if You are mad at me. i don't care if You say You want me. i don't care if You say You need me. i don't care that You hurt me again. Heck, i don't even care enough to make You hurt like i am hurting. It is like i am done. It is like i have nothing else to give and i can't keep going in these circles. It is like there is no future in this because we can't get passed all the same old crap. It is like i have nothing left to give to You. i feel so calm about this right now. Maybe it really is over.

Sat, 14 Jan 2006

i don't know how to say anything to you anymore. Anytime i say something, you get defensive and close into yourself. So how do i say that i feel like i have done all the effort and have accepted you and what you need, yet you haven't helped me grow like i have helped you? So how do i say that i feel like i am being restrained and held back while i watch you out doing stuff? So how do i say that i want to do more, to try more, to be more, without you feeling like i am critisizing you? So how do i say that the reason i am so scared is because i have no confidence in being able to be me because each time i am me, i am pushed away? Yes you have accepted little Elizabeth, but that has only been in the last few months. Yes you buy stuff that you know i want to explore with, but nothing happens with them. Yes you and i play, but usually only infront of others. You wrote that you don't want to have sex, that you have no desire. Great. So i don't do anything for you anymore. Great way to build my confidence. i feel like i have to do some kind of magic, like you did, for you to even begin to try to accept me, to try to do new things, to just try to be nice to me. In the last month, you have told me my feet are like leather, you have told me you can't sleep beside me because my breath stinks, you have told me how much i disturb you with my snoring. Even tonight, i had to initiate not wanting to think. You didn't consider i might need it. i had to ask for it. Wow, how submissive of me. i have been following the rules, and i have been doing my job. You suddenly think everything is alright between us because i haven't said anything. You think everything is good because we played once. You think everything is good because i am following the rules, and you don't need to think about punishing me. Well, i am not alright. i feel like you don't desire me. i feel like i am the only one that is working on this. i feel like if i say anything, i am wrong. i feel like i am a small, insignificant thing that you keep around to boost your ego. i feel like you don't care that my confidence is the shits. i feel like you don't care if i grow as a submissive. i feel like i can only find growth from others. i feel like you would prefer i find growth with others so you don't have to bother. i feel like i don't matter. i feel like i have helped you find who you are, and you get to enjoy that, and i get to sit back and wait for nothing to happen until i complain. This isn't anything new. i have said all this over and over and over and yet it never changes. i love you. i want to be with you. i want to grow with you. i don't want to keep waisting away and crawling into myself more and more and more. And i know that once you read this, things will change for a few weeks, and then it will all be the same, because we won't talk it out, and you will crawl into yourself, and i will feel like shit, because i can't just sit back and let it all happen and be so unhappy. i've decided to make this private. Not even you will be able to see it. If you were to read it, you would get defensive and angry, and the entire cycle would happen again. i just can't deal with that. So i am burying it all again.

Mon, 9 Jan 2006

i am having a really hard time right now. i am on the brink of tears. i want to crawl-up into a ball and cry. i tried to call. You didn't answer Your cell. You haven't called me back. i feel really really bad right now. TJ is due home soon. i don't want to be a mom. i want to be tucked into bed, in Your arms, and hide. i checked my sugars. i am fine. Not as high as i have been lately, but still high. That doesn't make me feel better. Even the clonazepam isn't helping. Why haven't You called back????? Now You won't call. Now it is after 3:30, and You won't call. Damn it

Thu, 29 Dec 2005

i was going to write this last night, but it got late and i needed to go back to bed.

i just wanted to say thank You. Thank You for realizing what mood i was in on Tuesday. Thank You for treating me like a little girl and not a slave/submissive.

Just thank You, thank You, thank You. i know i will see You tonight, as it is Thursday and You will be heading out tomorrow after work. i am going to really miss You.

Please take lots of pictures of Ethan. i want to see how much he has grown.

Mon, 26 Dec 2005

i wonder how long it has been since You read this journal. Oh well. Doesn't matter. Nothing matters. i was alone for Christmas, and will be alone for New Years. No big surprise. No change from any other year. i have TJ all week, of course, and then next week, i have Erin's kids aswell. i guess we will be watching alot of DVD's. Tomorrow i will be taking TJ to Chapters so we can both spend some of our gift certificates.


Entered: Tuesday, 27 December 2005 - 09:16 EST
Name: Mike
Comment: Hi Sweetie. I read this every couple days most times. I"m not sure how to tell you that you do matter to me and you always matter to me. love you

Tue, 29 Nov 2005

don't get why you couldn't come up and cuddle and comfort me. Why is it so hard for you to just come up, hold me and stroke my hair and listen and tell me everything will be ok? Why do i have to always put on a happy dispossition so you don't feel uncomfortable. When you get weapy, i don't pull away. i hold your hand and stroke your head. Why can't you do the same for me. That is all i needed. i just needed some comfort and suppost. instead you kept saying "i am still amazed that he qualified" i am totally stressing out over the fact that you keep saying that you are "amazed that he qualified". it feels like every time you say that, you are saying he doesn't deserve this wish. it feels like you are saying i am abusing the system. You say the autonomic stuff is not part of the AHC, and that the AHC itself is not life threatening. Please read below. from Alternating Hemiplegia of Childhood : Clinical Findings and diagnostic Criteria by Jean Aicardi, Marie bourgeois, and Francoise Goutieres "Paroxysmal autonomic phenomena were also ealy symptoms and could precede other manifestations of an attack, or occur in isolaation. The most common were paroxysmal dyspnea (see below) and vasomotor changes that included blanching or flushing of one limb or of half the body, with cold, clammy skin localized to one limb. These were usually seen on the same side as the hemiplegia that they regularly heralded in some cases. Some children become hypothermic or hyperthermic during the acute episodes. Many appeared sleepy and yawned repeatedly but seemed to have difficulty falling asleep. Vomitting was only exceptionally observed and was never prominent." "Some such episodes were associated with paroxysmal dyspnea in nine patients. However, dyspneic episodes also occurred in isolation in six children. Various respiratory abnormalities could be observed including swallowing and slow breathing, expiratory difficulties with wheezing and episodes of polypnea. Such dyspneic episodes were usually mild but in at least one child, apneic episodes were responsible for a frightening deep cyanosis that appeared life-threatening." "The clinical features of AHC are remarkably similar with respect to both ictal and interictal phenomena. They include: 1) onset before 18 months of age; 2) repeated bouts of hemiplegia involving either side of the body at least in some attacks; 3) other paroxysmal disturbances including tonic/dystonic attacks, nystagmus, strabismus, dyspnea and other autonomic phenomena occurring during hemiplegic bouts or in isolation; 4) episodes of bilateral lhemiplegia or quadriplegia starting either as generalization of a hemiplegic episode or bilateral from the start; 5) immediate disappearance of all symptoms on going to sleep with recurrence 10-20 minutes after awakening in long-lasting bouts; 6) eveidence of developmental delay and mental retardatoin and deurologic abnomalities including choreoathetosis, dystonia, or ataxia." i guess i am writing this because you seem to be treating me the same way mom does. like i know nothing and that what comes out of my mouth is always wrong. You have been snappy and blame me for the littlest thing. You get mad when i show any form of independance. i guess what i am also saying is you either support me in this or you don't. if you don't, and if you truly think he doesn't qualify, then i will pull him from the list. i will turn down his wish, as you seem to think his stopping breathing is not part of his AHC, or his lowered heart rate is not part of his AHC, or his fainting is not a part of his AHC.

Thu, 27 Oct 2005

i need to put this somewhere, where i can't ignore it, so i figured here is a good idea...

To Do Today
Send TJ off to school
go to Fortinos
go to the school (subs for kindergarten)
go to Zarky's
go to the school (subs for the rest of the school)
come home
put groceries away
TJ comes home
make spaghetti
feed TJ
get TJ changed
TJ goes to karate

i contacted Shell, and she will be lending me her corset for Monday. i get to pick it up tomorrow morning. i will be driving to guelph after TJ goes to school tomorrow to pick it up. TJ has agreed to let me wear it at school. HEHEHEHE. Ok, that is about it.

Sun, 23 Oct 2005

Maybe i haven't been clear about what i mean by needing D/s to get into the S/m, so here is a "fantasy" i thought of last night. You call from Your place, saying You will be arriving soon. You tell me to be wearing nothing and to be waiting at the door for You. i can have a blanket to kneel on if i need to, but discomfort gets extra points. We get off the phone and i am left knowing that soon You will arrive. i move to the door and take a blanket with me. Kneeling that long would just plain hurt. i kneel, naked, waiting for Your arrival. When You arrive, You immediatly have me remove Your boots and place Your slippers on You, then You have me stand, remove Your coat, and hang it for You. You then, taking me by the hair, turn me around and kiss me. You stroke my face, and praise me for doing such a good job. You leave me there, as You move to the couch, finding i have put the hockey game on. You kind of laugh knowing it was on for me, but glad just the same. You call me over then, and allow me to sit on the floor and have a smoke. You allow me to watch the game quietly. me always knowing that You are there, that You own me, and that You can do with me as You wish. Every once in a while You say things like, "enjoying the game my slut?" or say "come here and give your Master a kiss". You do let me do my painting, again giving me slight reminders of who i am to You. Eventually it is time for bed. You send me to the bed room to strip, to make sure the covers are tidy and all blankets are on the bed. You have me check the alarm clock so there will be no disturbances. You have me get out the cuffs and have me place them beside the alarm clock. You have me kneel at Your side of the bed, and wait for You to arrive. You have me undress You, using only one hand and my mouth. You enjoy watching me struggle. You make it harder by holding my head still with my hair. There is no threat of punishment, just the idea of struggle. Once You are naked, You slip into bed and order me around to my side. You tell me i can climb into bed. We cuddle and talk. You whisper in my ear that i am to stay in bed all night, and if i don't think i can do that, You will cuff me to the bed. You ask me to make the choice. You ask me which i think i can do. You decide in the end You want me changed, attached to the bed. This is the D/s i am talking about, the D/s i need. i don't need the beatings as much as You think i do. i need the D/s. i need You to take control. i don't need the pain as much as You think. i need to know what it feels like to be at Your feet again. i need to know what it feels like to be Yours again. The pain You inflict is part of it but it is always the same pain. Start of slow and get hard fast and furious. i NEED the D/s. i am submissive. i need to submit. Submitting to pain is one thing, submitting to You is another.

Sat, 22 Oct 2005

You are lying in bed. You have talked about needing a scene. All i really want is a little D/s. We had all night tonight. Telling me to strip might have been a good idea. Chaining me to the bed tonight might have been a good idea. i know the scene You are planning is all going to be about S/m. my head works the S/m better when D/s is involved, and tonight would have been the perfect lead-in. So yes, the poking was trying to illicit a response. Some sort of Domly comment, some sort of Domly attitude, some sort of command. Instead i got the "best way to torture a masochist is to not give them what they want". Too bad i can't be a masochist without being used as a submissive first.

Mike and Me - Sun, 16 Oct 2005

i decided to answer some of these here since i think the answers don't need to be public. 1. Why do things happen to me that don't seem to happen to friends. i don't know. Heck, i don't even know what you mean. What type of things? 2. Why do I feel like I have failed my love ones? i don't know. Maybe it is because You put to much pressure on yourself about things You have no control over, and don't recognize what You do have control over. 3. Why do I feel I can't take time for me? You do take time for You. You have Sunday evenings, Monday nights, and Wednesdays. You chose to have relationships with two families, and that means making time for both those families. It means making sacrifices with Your time. i have to make sacrifices to. i can't count on You being here for a weekend until You tell me You aren't going to go to Kingston. i can't count on spending any time on Sundays with You even when You are here on the weekend. i am basically at Your beck and call. You get to pick and choose when You spend time with TJ and i. You have been picking times to come up when You know TJ is in bed or not here or busy with someone else. So i don't know why You feel like You can't, because You do. You do it all the time. 4. Why do I not feel comfortable with who I am? Maybe You don't like who You are right now. Maybe You have decided You can't handle two families. If that is really the case, i would like to know. i would not like it, and i would be upset, but i would understand. Maybe You are dreading life right now, because You don't know how to live it thinking You are healthy. Maybe You are dreading the fact that everything is going well and You don't think You deserve it. What ever the case, You always do this. We fight, You get all "why me" and i get resentful because i feel like i have been doing all the compromising and holding up my end of the bargain, but You are just sitting back and not doing anything to work on our relationship. 5. Why do I hate the weather this time of year? Because You don't see it as a beginning, or a birth, but as a death. You see it as the trees are dying and the grass is dying, and You don't see it as the trees preparing to give birth to new growth, or the grass preparing to get green again for next year. Maybe it is because it means Christmas is coming and You still don't know what You really believe in. Those are all the questions i am able to answer right now. i know once You read this You are going to get all upset and depressed on me, and i am going to have to make You feel better. i am going to have to build up Your confidence and tell You that You are right and are doing nothing wrong. i almost don't want to post this because doing that takes alot of energy. Energy that i could be using to bake with TJ and play with TJ. Energy i could be using to make myself more confident. Energy i could be using to make things for Christmas for gifts, so i wouldn't have to spend a fortune. It also makes me resentful, that i should have to make You feel better when You have chosen this. You chose to have a wife and family in Kingston and chose to have me and TJ in Your life. You chose to live like this. In choosing to live like this there are alot of responsibilities and You need to start dealing with them and accepting them and stop whining over them. i have been supportive, and will continue to be supportive. What ever You choose to do, what ever You choose not to do, just do something. The cancer center has councilling. There is still the physio to look into. Things You could be doing to make Yourself better, but You choose not to. Never mind, i am done for the night.

Mike and Me - Thu, 13 Oct 2005

-call seperate school board about TJ going there next year
-make training cards for Mike
-contact/start process for Rygiel House (don't really want to)

Mike and Me - Wed, 12 Oct 2005

cancel appointment at MacMaster - rebook for 1 month
Milk Mom duty 12:20 l
ook for Yoda Mask for TJ

Completed:
cancelled appointment and rebooked for Nov 16th
did Milk day Mom
found yoda mask plus a full yoda costume...not exactly what i wanted, but i will put up with it contacted Make-a-wish