So, i am putting that aside for a moment right now. i need something else to think about. i have been thinking about what i want for my birthday. So, here is my list
- a flip phone, instead of the box thingy i have right now for my cell.
- a book by Laurell K. Hamilton called Danse Macabre.
- a good spanking, caning, whipping, cutting, pain filled time.
- the reclining chair i want so badly for my reflexology quest.
- to be fisted
- a one day cleaning lady (or team) to come in and clean this house from top to bottom, so i have a starting point to continue (this would include dusting and vacuuming and washing floors, and cleaning windows).
- all the previous seasons of 24.
- to be given oral sex, for longer than 3 minutes (not one of Mike's favourite activities as a Top)
- my friends all over for a good time on a Saturday night (hopefully being able to deal with number 3).
- the excess hair on my body removed, a facial, a real pedicure and manicure, a back treatment (basically a day of being pampered)
Those are the things i want for my birthday. That is how i want to be treated for my birthday. This would be a dream birthday for me. God the idea of actually having marks on my body while i attend the "party" at my parent's place the next day is filling me. i haven't had a good "workout" since last year, and that was because i requested it. The first "workout" i got for a birthday present that i didn't ask for was during the first DSSG Beginner's workshop, that actually was held on my birthday in 2001. Also the one a few years before that, when 2 special people gave me a private party. Other than those, including the 6 birthdays i had with Mike in my life, i don't really remember any special energy put into what would happen on my birthday.
Why did i accept so much less from Mike than what i gave Him. i would plan to take Him to Bingo (a favourite of His) even though i didn't like it. i would make Him a special meal. i would put thought into His gifts. Then again, i am so mad at Him, that i can't seem to remember that kind of stuff right now. i seem to be only able to think of the bad stuff at the moment.
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