Yes it has been a while. Things have been....different. I am not sure I like it all.
The DBT is bringing up emotions I am used to stuffing down in that dark space, where they can't come out and bother me. Now that they are coming out, I am having panic attacks. Lots of them. Normally, I would cut or drink or something to help stuff the emotions away. Promising not to do that anymore, means the feelings are exploding. So, I am picking the lesser of all the evils. I have been picking up men. I called that young pup from back in May that I liked. He came over and we had 2 great nights of sex. I haven't called him since.
Right now, I am good. I have closed off that part of me, and the emotions are no longer boiling over. I feel normal again.
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