Slooooowwwww
today is a slow day, not feeling much of anything. Master and i will not get to see each other until Thursday, and even then He is not able to sleep over. His shifts at work have changed for the next two weeks, so it is kind of like a break for us right now. This isn't a bad thing i think. With the discord going on lately, i know that this time apart will help us find each other again soon.
small revelation
ok, there are certain things i definitly do just for M. Spacificly going bowling each week. He couldn't join me tonight so i had to do it alone. I dressed respectfull, i wore a bra, and i even did the ticket announcing (and i hate talking infront of crowds). I think i did M proud. Well i hope i did anyways.Tomorrow looks like it is going to be a long day. The LM is having his kids party at a chinese resturant with 5 other kids. At least the resturant gets to deal with clean up and cake, and not on me. I just get to make sure no one kills each other.Wish me luck
Tuesday, March 30, 2004
Thursday, March 18, 2004
A Complicated Journey - Thursday, 18 March 2004
Early morning rant (please excuse)
So, my son wouldn't wish me a happy birthday, get me a card or a gift. Master didn't get me a card or gift but did post to the mailing list a birthday wish to me. Mom did call and wish me a happy day, as did my Sis.Got everything i was supposed to do, done, and quite well if i do say so myself. Heck, i even shovelled some of the loads of snow that were dump on my fair city.Guess i am really feeling down today. Heck was a fat day to begin with (You know those days, when no matter what you wear you think you look fat, and no matter what anyone says, you know you are fat.) Then add the "year older" and i am feeling just plain ugly and old. Maybe things will look better tomorrow?????
So, my son wouldn't wish me a happy birthday, get me a card or a gift. Master didn't get me a card or gift but did post to the mailing list a birthday wish to me. Mom did call and wish me a happy day, as did my Sis.Got everything i was supposed to do, done, and quite well if i do say so myself. Heck, i even shovelled some of the loads of snow that were dump on my fair city.Guess i am really feeling down today. Heck was a fat day to begin with (You know those days, when no matter what you wear you think you look fat, and no matter what anyone says, you know you are fat.) Then add the "year older" and i am feeling just plain ugly and old. Maybe things will look better tomorrow?????
Wednesday, March 17, 2004
A Complicated Journey - Wednesday, 17 March 2004
Happy Birthday To Me
well i am officially now 34 years old. I don't feel any older. Heck i hardly feel 30. Too bad I don't get much of a break todaySo far this morning things have been ok. The child finally decided to get his butt moving and i took him down to his karate camp, came home with spaghetti sauce so we can share a birthday dinner together, and i have had about 1 1/2 hours to do nothing. Soon D will be coming to take me out to lunch. Then time to pick-up my Mom and then the child again, home for dinner, then down to Master's for whatever it is He plans. At some point today i am supposed to shave. I have no idea when to fit that in, but will try, as i really don't want the consequence if i don't.
well i am officially now 34 years old. I don't feel any older. Heck i hardly feel 30. Too bad I don't get much of a break todaySo far this morning things have been ok. The child finally decided to get his butt moving and i took him down to his karate camp, came home with spaghetti sauce so we can share a birthday dinner together, and i have had about 1 1/2 hours to do nothing. Soon D will be coming to take me out to lunch. Then time to pick-up my Mom and then the child again, home for dinner, then down to Master's for whatever it is He plans. At some point today i am supposed to shave. I have no idea when to fit that in, but will try, as i really don't want the consequence if i don't.
Tuesday, March 16, 2004
A Complicated Journey - Tuesday, 16 March 2004
My First Time
well it is 11:02 PM and for some reason i have decided to start leaving those that know me and those that are interested, a keyhole to my life. I don't know how exciting this will be or how many will find it, but hope that if nothing else will give me a louder voice about what it is like to be both a submissive in a lasting relationship and the mom of a special needs child. So to all that might read it, i hope you find something here....
well it is 11:02 PM and for some reason i have decided to start leaving those that know me and those that are interested, a keyhole to my life. I don't know how exciting this will be or how many will find it, but hope that if nothing else will give me a louder voice about what it is like to be both a submissive in a lasting relationship and the mom of a special needs child. So to all that might read it, i hope you find something here....