Tomorrow i go for an assessment on if i am eligible for financial help to take the reflexology course i am really wanting to take. i have everything i need, i think. i printed of a lot of information from the internet, i spoke with the person teaching the course and have that information, and i called the OCR for even more information. i have it all gathered in my file thingy, ready to go. i am just so nervous.
This is the first "jump" i have made since Mike died. It feels like i huge jump. Almost a leap of faith. i am scared they will say yes to the financial aid. i am scared they will say no. i do have a backup plan if they say no. my Mom will be giving me the money to take the course. i just don't want to be that much more indebted to her. Plus she will feel it gives her license to make sure i go.
i am a little nervous about keeping myself motivated, but i know i really want this. Not only do i want the basic foot reflexology course, but i will also want to take the hand reflexology, and then my masters, so i can teach it. i just have to make sure to push myself, just like i have been doing with taking my meds, and trying to eat properly. i haven't been perfect at it, but i have been doing it.
i want to do this. i really want to do this. So, no matter what, i will do this.
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