So i went to the doctor's today. Yes i gained weight again. i knew i had. i just didn't know where it would put me on the scale. Now i know. Yes my blood pressure is fine. That is good.
The most important thing i learned at the doctor's is that she is proud of me. See, i have been having a harder time dealing with emotional situations. What i mean is that i haven't been able to keep the emotions all bottled up as easily as i usually do. Plus i have been having spontanious emotional outbursts (crying for no reason) and an increase in panic attacks. Apparently this is normal. That isn't what she is proud of though. She is proud i haven't said to hell with going to therapy. That i have decided to keep going and to keep dealing. It was nice to hear her say those words, and that i am being strong by still going. No, i may not like going, but it is good that i am going, and that i will continue to go.
To some this may not seem like a happy post, but it is. It sucks that i have to go through emotional crap that i have been burying for so long, but it is good because i know that i need to go threw it all, and i am. It is a good thing
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