So, i have made it out of the house each day this week so far. Either grocery shopping, or running around, or heading over to a friend's place. i even did 2 foot proceedures this week. i was able to not eat after 8, 3 nights. i have been drinking all my water. i have been showered 4 times already this week, with one more to go tomorrow. All is good, i guess.
Tonight i am headed out to the Hamilton Munch. i am nervous and scared. i don't like many of the people who go to this munch. i am especially scared of running into a couple that i had a dispute with back when Mike first died.
Tonight i am wearing Mike's calogne. i needed to smell Him again, and what better way than to smell like Him. It is calming me a bit. Not as much as i need, but enough for right now. Going to this munch always reminds me of Him. This is the one He always made it to, even if i couldn't. This is the munch that He enjoyed the most. E is going with me. i don't know if P will be there. i guess i will see. i am not looking forward to going. Not even the food. i know what Mike would order. He would have either the burger, or the fish and chips. i am just hoping to make it to the other side without completely loosing my composure.
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