Belt test Saturday

So yesterday was therapy day. i guess it went well. i know i didn't cry or get really upset. i did surprise her though. As soon as she walked out to get me, i could see something was wrong, and asked about it. Turned out she had a migraine and was going to say nothing was wrong, but decided that telling me i was very perceptive was more important. i talked about a lot of things. i talked about getting angry at Mike. i talked about the nurse and how she irritates me. i talked about the slight satisfaction i am getting out of bothering my mother by taking back the MIT. i talked about my friends. We talked about how i can, in her office, really get the fact that people react differently than i would in the same situation. We talked about applying that when i am not in the room with her. We talked about accepting people for who they are, and embracing their different opinions and advice with the knowledge that those who are closest to me are doing it out of love and concern. Overall it was a great session, that left me with things to think about.

i have my sticker page all printed off. Today is the first day of this week. i know that today i will be adding at least 3 stickers (going out, getting dressed, showering) and am striving for the rest (drinking water, moisturizing, cleaning).

Today i also take the MIT to His belt test. He is hoping to move from the green stripe belt, to the blue belt level. i am really proud of Him. He may be slower at reaching these achievements, but He is sticking with it, enjoying it, and moving at His own pace. i am really proud of Him. i never thought He would get to this level. i catch myself thinking of what might happen if He makes it to being a black belt. i wonder if He could teach other kids/adults with special needs. That would be cool. Then, i look at what is needed to be a black belt, and can't see Him ever getting there. Either way, i have learned that for the MIT, it is the process, not the final project that is important. The process of going to karate, and doing His best, and experiencing this "normal" activity is the most important thing.

i am worried about my friends and family. i am worried about E's cat and how the surgery went. i am worried about P and how stressed out He can get. i am worried about L and D and if they are needing any help. i know they are going through a difficult time and wonder how i can help or fix it. i am worried about my Aunt that was recently (Thursday) was diagnosed with a heart problem (one of her valves isn't working properly). i am worried about Dad, since he is out of town. i am worried about my Sis, and the choices she is currently making.

Overall, i am doing really good today. Sure i am tired and my throat really hurts (no real signs of strep), but i am doing good. i am up and ready to get the day going (although i may pull the MIT in to bed for a nap). i am ok with how i am handling today, with taking the MIT to His belt test, and taking Him out for breakfast first. i am having a good day today. Not a "in the moment" thing. More like a "this is how it is going to be" thing.